Kill me faster

Touch me, it makes me happy
Embrace me, it takes me to the light
Kiss me, it makes me stronger
Save me I know only you could break my chains..

Why do I feel so alone? Its all I’ve been feeling lately. My grandmother just seems to make things worse. Everyone who used to be my ‘’friends'’, really want nothing to do with me. Shelby is who is left and she is in South Dakota. I’m just here alone all day and all night. Anthony is there. James is there. Jennifer is there. Jessica is there. Will is there. Wherever there is. I’m stuck in this room, these same walls that say no exit. The close me in and keep me chained.  Wrapped up my leg, around my arms, down my back.  I’m being nice to everyone when all I can think is “Can’t you be nice, you fucking bitch?“. I’m being beaten down by the law. I understand all of it, its just shity for me.

  Your dirty little secret’s got a pretty mouth
And wouldn’t you love to kiss her
You always were temptation’s bitch
And don’t you love to want her

Silence casts a heavy curtain
And hush your means of love
The things you think, the words you speak
It’s all in the way you touch

The wrinkles in your satin sheets
The folds and virgin curves
She never confuses, she never lies
Forever and always, she’s yours

Well I should update this more often. So maybe I’ll write some more later.

Tears roll down a cheek
Here and there i feel the creeps
Of darkness bidding me fair well
My walls seem to talk back now
Sleep never comes anymore
Eyes close only to ease the sound of screaming
Break everything unbroken
Hearts torn and shattered
Hurry save me please
This just hurts so bad
I don’t wanna be sad
Not anymore
So let’s close this door
Don’t talk and i’ll walk away
Today is just another one of those days

With the intensity of the sun

damn

And if I was single? It wouldn’t change what we are now.

Favorite facebook apps

As much as I hate to admit it, facebook took me over. And the apps took me over after that. Sooo.. the apps I use most are:

Astrology
I love astrology, although still learning about it and I have many sites I go to everyday for my horoscope (Its how I sort out which sites are just a load of bullshit, I view them for a while, compare them.) And so far, I do like this App, but I’m not really a fan of the comment section.. but I’m still testing it all out.

Bejeweled Blitz
You get 1 minute to score as many points as possible, and I really enjoy it. I don’t really have any problems with this one.

Castle Age
Raise an army of Knights, Elves, Angels, Dragons and other mythical creatures to conquer the continent in Castle Age. I love it.

Farm Town
Design, grow and maintain your farm and even send gifts to your friends.

FarmVille
It’s the same thing as Farm Town.. but I play this one a lot too.

I’m Reading
“Show the books you are reading in your profile. Browse what all your friends are reading and look at reviews they have written. Write your own book reviews to share with your friends.” Because I’m a bookworm.

Realm Of Empires
A medieval-themed game where you grow a small village into a prospering town.

Tetris Friends
It’s basically just a web-based tetris game where you try to beat your friends scores.

And I will update this entry again in a couple days (or tonight if I get bored) and will put up more that I like, I’m currently in search of more apps.. so, what are your favorites?

Youtubers I love

I am completely addicted to youtube.

So, I thought hell I might as well post a blog (since I haven’t been posting any) showing off some of the youtubers I love.

1. Sxephil He’s a sarcastic bastard, who gives you news everyday.

And, his other channel, PhilipDeFranco

2. iJustine. And, Her other channel.

3. Hotforwords. She is a hot chick, with a great mind.

Comedy:

4. nigahiga, He is hilarious, and should trademark “TeeHee”, just go watch.

5.kevjumba. He is funny AND has a good point of view on things.

The rest is basically about makeup so just a warning.

6. Pursebuzz and pursebuzz.com

7. xsparkage,  Her other channel and xsparkage.com.

8. petrilude and petrilude.com.

9. jennac0re.

10. notxworthless, Seriously, Quin is adorable.

11. xteener.

12. MichellePhan.

12. MakeupByRisa and Her other channel. She is very inspiring..

And I’ll make another blog in a few months or so about this because I’m sure there will be a ton more by then.

Who’s your favorite youtube users?