Kill me faster

Touch me, it makes me happy
Embrace me, it takes me to the light
Kiss me, it makes me stronger
Save me I know only you could break my chains..

Why do I feel so alone? Its all I’ve been feeling lately. My grandmother just seems to make things worse. Everyone who used to be my ‘’friends'’, really want nothing to do with me. Shelby is who is left and she is in South Dakota. I’m just here alone all day and all night. Anthony is there. James is there. Jennifer is there. Jessica is there. Will is there. Wherever there is. I’m stuck in this room, these same walls that say no exit. The close me in and keep me chained.  Wrapped up my leg, around my arms, down my back.  I’m being nice to everyone when all I can think is “Can’t you be nice, you fucking bitch?“. I’m being beaten down by the law. I understand all of it, its just shity for me.

  Your dirty little secret’s got a pretty mouth
And wouldn’t you love to kiss her
You always were temptation’s bitch
And don’t you love to want her

Silence casts a heavy curtain
And hush your means of love
The things you think, the words you speak
It’s all in the way you touch

The wrinkles in your satin sheets
The folds and virgin curves
She never confuses, she never lies
Forever and always, she’s yours

Well I should update this more often. So maybe I’ll write some more later.

Tears roll down a cheek
Here and there i feel the creeps
Of darkness bidding me fair well
My walls seem to talk back now
Sleep never comes anymore
Eyes close only to ease the sound of screaming
Break everything unbroken
Hearts torn and shattered
Hurry save me please
This just hurts so bad
I don’t wanna be sad
Not anymore
So let’s close this door
Don’t talk and i’ll walk away
Today is just another one of those days